These Walls (with addition)

These walls that took so long to build
Quickly come crashing down.
Once up so tall and strong,
They now lie broken on the ground.

How can I forget what once was?
When I’m reminded of what it’s become.

I felt your pain and misery.
You know all my insecurities.
You had the opportunity.
Were you just using me?

Now I know what it means to be free.
These walls were never meant to be.


These walls have all been rebuilt.
Now they are stronger than Ever!
Where I was once so weak,
Now I am ready for these endeavors

How can I forget what I once was?
When I look back at what I've become.

You felt the pain and misery.
I know all of your insecurities.
We had the opportunity.
Can't we be in Harmony.

Now you know what it means to be free.
These walls were never meant to be.

Writing

Well, I haven't written in a long time. Not only on here, but writing in general. BUT, I have been inspired by a great friend to start writing again. The first thing I am going to post is the second half of the song "These Walls" so keep an eye out for that.

Well, My parents went to go pick up the moving truck today, and to drop off our dog to his new home. It's a little eerie here all alone. Every time I see something, I feel so weird thinking in 3 days, I'll never see it again...well maybe never, but never again as MY home. It's hard to put in words, I'm not really an emotional person, like, I'm not sad? it's just weird...idk how to put it. So as i sit here with Air1.com blasting through the house so it's not so empty...I think back at all the memories i've made in this house. How many new friends i made while i lived here. How different life would've been had i NEVER lived here. What life's gonna be like with my parents 3,000 miles away. I feel like writing a song, but the words are just out of my grasp. so, i'll just keep writing this blog, that no one reads...so this is to YOU Phillip Arthur Munshausen III It doesnt matter if anyone else will ever read this blog, cause this is for you to express what you feel, when you're not really sure how. and to anyone who might stumble onto this page...My you know that there is a God who loves you. Who sent HIS son JESUS to die for your sins, and all you have to do is accept his wonderful gift, of Eternal life. And I leave you with this...Let go, and Let GOD!

The Big Move!

In case you guys hadn't heard. My parents were offered, and accepted a job for ACE Ministries. They will be working as Home School Representatives, trying to sell ACE's curriculum to families who home school. This is part of the area they will be covering. For sure we know that they will cover Georgia, Florida, and Alabama. But they may also have Mississippi, Arkansas, and South Carolina. The blue dot-thingie, is where they are planning to live.





Valdosta - Google Maps



As you may know, I want to move to Oregon, but this just complicates things further. I figured I would have my parents living in CA when I first moved, so I could have somewhere close by where I could keep most of my stuff until I find a place to live. But with them moving ACROSS THE COUNTRY!!!! I don't know what to do, then of course they want me to go with them. I am so confused right now, it's tough, cause none of these decisions are easy. No matter what I choose to do, I will be away from Family. This is a very tough decision, and I would ask anyone who reads this to pray for me! To add to the confusion, I JUST got my insurance in CA to get my knee worked on, so if I want my knee to be fixed I am going to have to stay in CA until I get it fixed. :[ And since my knee isn't fixed, I haven't gotten a job, so I'm broke, and couldn't move if I wanted too. Double :[

well, i will talk to you guys later .

Anger

There is this little thing called anger. Anger is like a ninja, it influences those around it, and by the time you notice it....it's too late. Why is it that when something upsets you, you don't realize that you're so upset. But then something little, almost unbelievably small sets you off? Usually you would keep your calm, and just not let it bother you, but this time.....this time you are already upset. All the little things have been weighing you down more than you know. Maybe they're not little things? Maybe just maybe it is something big? Something that to you, is one of the most important things? I don't have an answer. People get upset, and people get angry, all I know is God is the only one who can help you take away your anger. And even then you have to WANT Him to take it. well..... self ... that is all for know. I will write more to myself later.

Take it Easy -Phillip

WOW!

It has been over a month since my last post...man, where does time go...well anyways...The day after my last post. ie Christmas, I hurt my knee pretty bad, it was totally dislocated and swollen, and it hurt. Well, I finally got X rays but the doctor said it didn't show anything conclusive. So that means i have to make another appointment to have an MRI scheduled. And yesterday, my big toe nails (aka the Toenails of Evil) were really bothering me again. I've had them removed by doctors about 6 or more times. So, I decided that I was over qualified to perform such a procedure on myself....but I did it anyway. So, know my knee isn't hurting too bad, but my big toe..the left one to be exact, is really hurting. I know that sounds like it was a stupid idea, but if I didn't remove it, it would constantly hurt me all day, every time i take a step, so yeah. That's about it in my world.

CHRISTmas Eve!!!!!

Well, i don't really have anything important to say, but it has been almost a month since my last post...which was on my birthday..not that anybody reads this..So I figured it was about time i posted something again. So here it goes.

It is Christmas Eve at about 5pm in the evening, and my mom is making the traditional Clam Chowder, don't ask why that is tradition cause i have NO IDEA. Most of the family that is going to be here tomorrow is still NOT here, but that's normal, they are late to everything. Reggie, one of my best friends, and my sisters Boyfriend IS here, but that's normal too, he practically lives here. But, very soon my house will be filled with about 32 people, it will be packed out...but I LOVE IT.

So since i won't be posting anything tomorrow, Let me give you a play by play for what's gonna go down...no i'm not psychic, we just do the same thing every year....I will wake up MUCH earlier than i would like, Thanks a lot David!, i will open my stalking which will be waiting for me outside my bedroom door. I will then go back to sleep for about another hour or so, then I'll get up for the day.

The Moms and Grandmas and Aunts will be cooking all morning, and everyone will be getting hungry. We will be waiting on my Uncle, who is late so much he will probably be late to his own funeral. When he finally gets here we will all sit around the living room, dining room, and kitchen area, and all the men in the family, and a few girls, will be given a selection of scripture pertaining to the Christmas story....My dad of course will read Luke 2, particularly the part that Linus from Charlie Brown reads.....and of course he will cry while doing so...

After all the reading is done, most of the children will be whining about being hungry, and we will then eat. There will be enough food to feed 143 people, and there will be TONS of leftovers.

After eating we will start the part of CHRISTmas that gets most of the attention and sadly what most people think CHRISTmas is about. The presents....We will then spend a few hours opening presents, tearing into wrapping paper like the contents of the package will change our lives.....even though the only gift that will is the Death and Resurrection of Christ Jesus, the TRUE Reason for the Season! But during this barrage of torn paper and presents, another Family Tradition emerges.....Christmas Paper Fight.... Let me explain.... We take up all the paper from the gifts, ball it up, and hurl it at people....it sounds crazy, but it's fun.

Well my non-readers....that in a nutshell is how CHRISTmas goes around the Munshausen place.

All are welcome. All are loved. All are family.