Brokenness

Darkness came, and happiness died
Even hope seems not enough
To keep me from hating life
I just wish I could run and hide

Never enough, I’m never enough
For anyone’s hopes and dreams
Why can’t I just this once
Be good in someone’s eyes

Even the sun seems dark
When compared to the light
The light that was in your eyes
Why must I always be alone

My heart breaks and my bones ache
For some shred of happiness
Yet it never comes
Tears come and go, but pain stays

Surrounded by darkness and empty feelings
Why does everything I love have to leave
Broken I sit here writing these words
Rhyme or prose means nothing to me anymore

Hope for a future seems so dim
For I am not worth waiting for
Why would perfection wait for brokenness
Why would she wait for me.

Dear Rose

Your love is like a rose,
So beautiful and strong.
But if I do not water it,
It cannot last as long.

Hear me! Oh, dear rose.
I know that you love me,
It's not that I do not love you,
I just feel so unworthy.

Unworthy of your precious love.
Unworthy of your grace.
Unworthy of your very presence.
And of your smiling face.

But you have found me worthy,
Though I cannot see why?
You love every part of me,
Even parts I wish would die.

Beside you I will stand.
And for you I will fight!
I pray that every single day,
You'll be in my sight.

An Untitled Psalm

I have always admired King David, especially his Psalms. I think for me, I love music so much, I can relate to feeling like the best way to express yourself to God is through songs. I also love how honest, and broken he is with his lyrics, so I wrote this and it had a psalm vibe to it, so I call it

"The Untitled Psalm"

In my darkest hour,
In my time of need.
I call upon the Lord,
And fall down at His feet.

You guide me with your rod.
You bruise me with your staff.
So break me everyday,
With your love and not your wrath.

Please pull me from this pit,
For I can't get away.
And place me in your arms,
There forever I may stay.